Way Down Low

I'm not going to lie or try to hide it. I'm not going to pretend like everything is perfect or that this is ideal for our family. Just like always, life is full of ups and downs. Sometimes life is way up high, sometimes way down low, and sometimes it's just a little bumpy. Right now for me, life is way down low.

Many times I sit and wonder why all of this has to be happening to us. Why are we getting dealt such bad luck? Why has it worked out for nearly every other resident we know to buy a house and get settled? Why has this whole process seemed to go wrong? What is going to go right? When will we catch a break? Living in such a small space with crazy kids, no TV, no internet, and nothing to do makes you think these crazy thoughts!

We are still without a house. We are with Erik, though, and I can be thankful for that, along with running water and air conditioning! It is getting hard to remember, though, how fortunate we are when this 600 square foot apartment is too cramped for five people or when our air mattress, the only furniture in the place, gets a hole and we are having to sleep on the floor. It is hard to remember when the kids have one box of toys here and these toys got old after the first couple days or when I have to constantly discipline the kids for running and jumping in the apartment because we live on the third floor and I'm worried that we'll annoy the person living under us. I'm so ready to move out and move on.

This chapter in life is becoming a difficult one for me to live, but like all down times in life, they always come up again. I'm encouraged by my kids and how they make the best of such a bad situation. They really aren't even phased at all! What great examples for me to follow. I'm looking forward to better times.